Aww, I get into details and ruin it. lol

We discussed diagnosis. Early on we agreed it wasn't important. I mentioned that the former T (who I saw only about 6 weeks) laid a couple on me, one was a personality disorder diagnosis. When I told this T about it, she lightly said "Oh, well, what isn't about personality development, really."

And we've left it at that.

Last night I brought it up. I've been researching and reading, and thinking and noticing things about my behavior and perceptions. I thought this diagnosis I brought up sounded very much like me. "Depression/anxiety" just never seemed to completely and adequately describe my experiences.

So (told you I get too wordy!) she readily agreed that this diagnosis applies to me. She's thought this for some time. She hadn't mentioned it in part because it seemed to her that when the former T laid those diagnoses on me, I felt 'attacked' and she didn't want me to feel that way with this diagnosis.

She's correct in how I felt about the former T's abruptly stating those diagnoses. But it is so amazing to me that she remembers these things. This was something I told her 10 months ago and never mentioned again since.

So, the love is that she cares how I feel about this. Her noticing how I felt then and bringing it into the here and now of last night's session with her continued thoughtfulness and concern for my feelings just feels so very good.