I have absolutely hated the hospital I was at the last three times i’ve been hospitalized. But I do wish I could go to a better facility.

I miss being hospitalized, just NOT the place I have been. I miss having scheduled times to take meds, scheduled meal times, not having to deal with the huge stressors of my life. Even with the crappy staff and crappy groups, I am able to spend down time, either reading a book or writing in a journal they can give us. I disliked my last hospital stay the least, right before Thanksgiving, but I ended up writing nearly 30 pages in a journal. Being introspective about myself, what are the reasons why I can’t cope, what I need to do to change that, what are the positive things to do. But after having to deal with a husband, kids, two families, throughout December, all of that got lost. And I get scattered and don’t know how to put myself back together. I spend all of my time worrying about the needs of everyone else. Being in the hospital is the ONLY time I can focus on me. That’s what I miss, just getting away from it all, I just wish it were at a better hospital.