I was originally diagnosed schizo-effective almost 30 years ago but was correctly diagnosed Bipolar 4years later a lot over lapse between the two I take lithium and abilify now. I have psychosis sometimes with Manias. You are not alone I do go to the hospital in manias and severe depressions to have medicine adjustment but am grateful I have a safe place to go when manic depressed or psychotic. Hospitals and taking medicine as prescribed is a strength not a weakness and should not be feared but looked as a very effective tool to be safe while getting better