Lately, I've felt like T has been very supportive and caring. Today he just...wasn't. I don't know if he was distracted or what, but he had his arms crossed most of the session (he never sits like that except for a minute) and just didn't seem to be picking up my need for support today. Instead, it felt like he was conducting a marriage counseling session, but with just me. I know the role of a T isn't just to support. But when I'm sitting there sobbing, asking for ways to stop having so much self-loathing...I feel like it should have been obvious I wanted something other than what he was giving me...And I only got a "See you next week" when we parted. Had to fight back tears (only moderately successfully) as I got on elevator--one good thing about MC/ex-T's office is that you can get out of there pretty quickly.