Thank you so so so much for all your supporting replies, they're so precious to me

I will try all your suggestions. I'm very thankful indeed for the internet, because it provides a virtual world where one could try to find & connect with people who are similar in thinking. Sadly, as in real life, I can't find such people, because most people & men here are very traditional in their thinking, so it's a very very very rare chance that I can find a soulmate through connecting & meeting with people here in Egypt, & that makes me feel so miserable

I've already applied to PhD programs abroad. But still, what are the chances of me traveling outside AND staying there AND finding a soulmate there? A lot of people seek to immigrate to developed states, so immigration is not an easy thing, but the idea crosses my mind from time to time. But at many times, I feel discouraged to search for immigration opportunities because few people get that chance. But perhaps, I should consider this more seriously!