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Originally Posted by growlycat
Before you decide to leave therapy (or not?) it might serve you well to let him have it verbally. That you feel Like his friendliness might have been fake all along. That you can’t trust what he says. He needs to know this is a serious rupture and he needs to hop to it on the “repair” part before he loses you. Maybe he will step up to the plate and come through. Are you able to contact him between sessions? If so you could even tell him you are thinking about quitting and you are holding on by a thread. I’m all for blasting these guys when they screw up. The good ones will make it right and not ignore your pain.
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I am allowed to contact yes, he says the emails etc wont end abruptly, we would discuss it in advance first. I was quiet most of the session because I just wanted to bolt or cry.
I feel like saying I am ready to quit, he would just say, well thats your choice because he said that before. That he isn't gonna push anyone to stay. Plus he is getting a bunch of new clients so I'll be forgotten soon anyway.
I don't even know what to really say to him, anything I say will just be thrown back at me with some rule or something. I even said I can't be friends with who I want to be and he is like, yes you can, no one is stopping you but you, umm yes you are and whomever makes the rules for this crap.
I give up on people. I can't put myself though this anymore, too many jerks have made me think I matter and then pulled the rug out from under me. I'm not worth it to anyone. Anyway, I am gonna try to write up something. I thought about asking if I can go back this week for another session but I think he will say no