I wrote out my feelings but unlikely Ill share it with him. I'm gonna try and see if I can get in again Fri,even though we are supposed to be at once a week. I just need to try and fix things cuz the trust is fading quickly on my end... and potentially just tell him goodbye.

I wanted to work with him through my phobias at least but I can't if the trust is dead. Nothing worse than someone who made you feel so good about yourself, has you contemplating calling the suicide hotline...