Thanks everyone. As of now still unsure what to do. I am thinking I may try to go a second time this week if he allows it,he has me back on weekly so I dont know, and then just get the rest of my thoughts and such out there, I barely spoke in session. Was in too much shock

I need to see if there is any reason to continue, is he willing to actually work with me on my phobias and CBT or just keep BSing with me? All I know is I can't end it like this, if it has to end, I want it on a bit better terms.

I wish I knew how to hate him, loathe him and stop all these pointless silly feelings. There has to be a way so I'll keep trying. I know he doesn't like me and I don't matter. I am just another paycheck and Its gonna be sooooooooo hard to trust him now.. but we will see.