Yes, your last T was punishing, it sounded like to me, from what you have written in the past.

I hate to ask, since it sounds like you don't:

but is there anyone in your life at the moment whom you feel you can trust? If not, a different therapist might be able to help you sort through some things. Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate at the moment.

I ended up getting hurt a lot in therapy, with no resolution of that hurt, but there are some others who post in the forum and they are very specific about what they want and what they don't and have had some success with that approach. Don't know if that's an option for you, though.