Hi Northchild. I'm happy to read that you've been able to accomplish so much lately. I understand that dire situations are certainly motivators, but you are very lucky that your intense schedule (at least to my current perspective) isn't destabilizing you. Obviously you are in a place that you can handle what you are doing. If I lost my husband and/or SSDI right at this moment I'd probably have to sell my house and move elsewhere (with my father if I lost my husband). I'd probably be hospitalized either way. Best case scenario if I tried to even interview for a full-time job right now, I'd probably be so extremely anxious that I'd be throwing up every day and not make it through the interview. But I do have optimism that someday I'll be able to handle more, with extreme motivator or not.

SorryShaped, I won't let myself ruminate on "could haves" or "should haves" too much. I understand that doing so is a waste of time. Just occasionally do these thoughts pop into my mind.

I will be doing more going to the adult school class with hubby. As for daytime activities, I will look for more, but I think I may not be ready to commit to a twice per week outside activity starting next week. Perhaps if it was starting a month from now I might have signed up and crossed my fingers. Too much is happening right now that stresses me out.