Cali95, I'm so sorry for what you went through. It's a horrible thing to grow up with that kind of twisted, sick abuse. Its not your fault and you didn't do anything to deserve it or cause it.
It will be very hard to talk about what happened, but when you feel strong enough and ready for it, its important that you do get it out in therapy or at least in journaling until you're ready talk about it with your therapist. It's important for your healing to work through the abuse. Hiding it only prolongs it's hold over you.

Arbie, I experienced the same skewed viewpoint as a teenager. I thought that giving sex would get me love. I was molested at 13 by a 26 year old. I thought I was in love with him & that he loved me. That experience changed the trajectory of my life and led to a lot of promiscuity as a teen and into early adulthood.
Now I recognize he was a pedophile. But at 56, I still feel dirty and unworthy because of my early promiscuity. I'm still trying to work that out. Therapy is definitely helping me though. I hope you have a good therapist too.