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Old Jan 31, 2018, 03:10 PM
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One more thing, as I told you I am not confident at all and with this I really mean at all. I don't know what should I tell people when they ask me what do I do for a living, I think in my head, should I say I write content for websites? is this enough? what should I tell them to give a good impression?

This is may be because I have never achieved anything in my life. And I think I will feel complete when I will achieve at least something. And to achieve anything, I need to work, and to work.... you know what happens with me.

I am really sorry if I have asked too many questions. but I think you can help
Hi Katie,

I think you can tell people that you are a writer. That's enough to give a good impression. If they ask what kind of writing, you could say you provide content for businesses to publish online, like marketing content, product reviews, etc. Honestly, I think people would find that impressive since a lot of people are terrible writers and don't understand at all how to put a sentence together.

I think you need to talk to a therapist. From everything I hear, it sounds like you suffer from a form of performance anxiety. When you describe that the second you sit down to write, you feel sleepy, anxious, unable to work...that is textbook performance anxiety. A therapist could help you work through that.

The sleepiness could be a sort of defense mechanism your body produces when you start to feel anxiety. I get that a lot. My brain does not want to deal with any more anxiety, so it turns to sleep to shut it out. A therapist will help you deal with the performance anxiety directly and help you learn how to be productive and tackle your fears about not meeting your clients needs.

It's unfortunate when our mental health gets in the way of completing a project, as you mentioned in another post about cancelling contracts, but it happens. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, forgive yourself, learn from it, figure out how to cope next time, and try again.

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