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Originally Posted by toomanycats
I relate to this a ton.
For the most part, I don't know what I don't know until someone calls my attention to it.
But, my mom has shared so many things with me that I have zero recollection of -- things I should absolutely remember... and so now my attention HAS been called to the gaps, and it's so frustrating and, honestly, anxiety-producing that I cannot remember...that I can't force my brain to remember.
I go back and forth with waves of trying so hard to remember -- even reconnecting with people from my way-back past who aren't really people to keep around...and wanting to drive back to my old neighborhood where I grew up. (that one I haven't done yet, but still want to...)
then I'll go on a wave of letting it go. 'cus you can only push your brain to exhaustion for so long.
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It's funny (not really) how that happens.
Things are there, and have been there for a long time. Then for whatever reason it comes blaring vividly into your mind with no ending. So very frustrating!
It's up to me to figure it out because I have no one I trust to ask about it. I'm thankful for you that you have someone to ask and talk to about it.
I'm sorry for your frustration and anxiety in trying to fill the empty places that you have found.
It does come in waves and I agree that
"you can only push your brain to exhaustion for so long."
Maybe we just give it time and it will or won't.......