Thanks for posting this. No... I guess I don't have the kind of fear of death you refer to. I've also never had a real panic attack although I have had, & still do have to some extent, what I guess would be referred to as agoraphobia. The way I have experienced it though is simply that the longer I'm out in public the more anxious I gradually get. It's not so bad nowadays. But there was a time when it would get so bad I would become dizzy, feel like I was floating outside of my body, & would have to fight to stay oriented to my surroundings. I always just toughed it out though &, over the years the condition has moderated.

Like you, I don't believe anything exists beyond death. I accept the explanation for the existence of life on earth (including homo sapiens) that is provided by the theory of evolution. So, for me, when you're dead, you're dead... end of story. I don't think much about death though. I suppose perhaps I should since I'm pushing 70 years old! "I feel that old tyrant approaching / that cruel remorseless old foe..." to borrow some lyrics from an old Irish tune. I suppose part of the reason I don't think about it more, though, is that I've always been pretty physically healthy for the most part. I could see where having had 5 heart attacks, as you have had, would tend to bring the whole idea into much sharper focus. I wish you well...