I’ve been clenching my jaw all day. I’m SO anxious about returning to work tomorrow. I have a headache now. I just put on my aromatherapy necklace with some lavender essential oil so hopefully that will help calm me down. I’m going to use my weighted blanket later also when the house cools down a little bit. Im just freaking out is all. Nbd.

I just want to get the first day over with. I still have to study chapter 7 for tomorrow and Friday. I wish I understood math better. I wish my co teacher wasn’t so difficult. I wish I didn’t have to go back. But my tax return wasn’t that much seeing as I can’t file as qualifying widow anymore.

I’m also worried that I’m going to get audited because I filed as head of household. I qualify but I don’t pay rent to my mom and I don’t pay the electric/water bill so I don’t know if I pay more than half of household expenses, although my mom paid off the mortgage so she only pays property tax. I pay cable/internet and all the rest of my bills, including groceries for me and my son. I get worried every year that I’m going to get audited though. I hate dealing with the government.

In other news my state is considering banning menthol cigarettes so I guess it’s good I quit. I hate regular cigarettes. I don’t know if they’ll actually go through with it but that’ll be even more motivation To stay off of them.