I just want to know if anyone else has ever experienced this, or if I'm taking things wayyyy too far/thinking wayyyy too much...

I have been in the midst of a difficult situation with my therapist as I have been trying to determine if he is safe to talk to about 'parts stuff.' We have frustratingly attempted to talk, but I couldn't get anywhere, because any time I began talking, two words in, I just...couldn't. Stuck in the conundrum of "I can't talk to you about 'parts stuff' until I know if you are safe to talk to about it; I can't know if you're safe to talk to about it unless we talk about it."

Anyways, point is...today, I woke up, and all of the barriers seemed to be gone. Like. I was just "I'm gonna get s*** done." I could talk freely about it, use words I couldn't get out of my mouth. And, the other parts, that I'm usually always hearing and who always also seem to be hearing what's going on out here and responding to it, were just...not. Not there. No sense of them. And I was able to handle miscommunications from purely this adult, logical, not personally attached level as if I was just there to negotiate the terms for someone else. Without little parts getting hurt. Without angry parts throwing out barriers. But, every once in a while, I became aware that I felt... "part-y" ... is that a thing?

And, so, even while writing this - it's like... I still feel.... "part-y" -- as if I'm talking about a situation that I worked out for someone else. But I don't feel like "not me." I feel like "me."

So, my question... 1. would "I" know if I were a "part?" (Can parts know they are parts when out? Can parts NOT know they are parts when out? This is so confusing.) and 2. Does anyone relate to this at all or am I speaking gibberish?