I have sciatica and have been in a lot of pain lately, especially when I sit too long. That happened today so when I went to my session I was hurting. Sitting didn't work so I tried lying down on the couch. That wasn't good either. T offered to give me my check back if I didn't want to stay, but I wanted her to help me relax before my MRI tonight.

T noticed I was holding my breath so I started taking deeper breaths. We did 4 counts in and 5 out together. Then I decided to stand up and play my last recorded voice lesson and sing along with it. Singing makes me feel good. Singing to T made me forget the pain for a while. But when I finished, I said "I know you're not my friend because who would pay $165 to sing to their friend! But I felt so good and relaxed. Who cares about the money? I'm paying for your time and it is what it is!"

I don't feel like I wasted my money. I wanted to calm down, and singing to T is something I never could have done in my past. It's totally out of character for me to sing to others. It's a real accomplishment for me. I've sung in my session before but this was the first time I looked at her while doing it.

I was very scared about the MRI but I did it! I took one larazipam pill beforehand which is affecting me now! So this post may be a little wacky. I have to go to sleep.