It feels very good to get such wonderful support from all you...Although I got very little sleep last night, this morning I am in pretty good spirits. I see my T tonight, so hopefully that will help.

I know this may sound a bit strange, but last night I fantasized to help take my minds off the bad thoughts. I fantasized about fixing coffee and cooking breakfast for a person that I love...I included all the little details like putting icing on the rolls and grinding the coffee beans...laying out the news paper, pouring the orange juice. It helped.

But, now, I need to survive a day at work on very little sleep. I know I can do it--I have done it before--it's just not much fun.

thanks for being here.