I am going through a very stressful time and as mentioned before email my therapist regularly. I would say this has increased in the last month when I send a longish message every day.
At some point at the beginning of the new year when the stress levels in my life increased and so did the emails volume I was emailing a lot about feeling guilty about all the messages and asking for her to raise it in session so we can talk about rules and bounderies. In the past I've explained here that we talk over skype because I live aborad but a day before we were about to meet in person (this happenes every 2-3 months) she suggested in an email we would talk about my emails. When the session came we never did as there were more urgent issues to discuss. Nothing was mentioned since by her even though I wrote about it sever times.
I am a coward because I can't bring myself to talk about it in person. I send long paragraphs about my emailing to her telling her that I will continue the messages unless she approaches me about it. i do know she reads them and there has been many many times when I asked her (in the email) to tell me if anything has to change.
In the begining we would openly talk about my habits and she was always fine but then when I had a spell of more intense messaging we would jokingly comment that hopefully the next week is gonna be quiter.
Since it got out of control (for me) I have not addressed it in session.
Why can I not start the conversation? I am terrified emails will get banned or restricted. I even explained this very thing to her in an email. She knows that I find it uncomfortable to talk about the emails but for some reason she doesnt talk about them either.
Of course I asked myself why is it that I need to send them and what purpose do they serve me - Its a way to manage stress to feel less alone with the cirumstances and to be able to express everything that is going in freely. The level of trust I have with her and the ability to actually really explain my motiives and fears is incredible. She is the only perso who gets the raw, true version of events.
Well... I suppose I am just curious: is she ok with the messages if she never restricts them? Does she mind?