Over the past few years I've tried to get hired in some sort of part time retail position (I've never had a real job before), but never succeeded. I held myself back because I was nervous about what working meant: long shifts every other day, dealing with customers, etc.
However, recently I realized that part time retail isn't the only type of work, even for someone with no experience. I got really into the idea of freelancing, and was excited about the prospect of working from home on things I enjoyed, on my own time. I even created a Fiverr account and started an offer writing articles and blog posts.
Throughout the next few weeks I was paralyzed with fear. What happens if I get a customer? What happens if I can't finish the job on time? What happens if they don't like my work, and leave a negative review?
I realized I was having these feelings because I felt I wasn't good at the thing I was offering. I think I'm an okay writer, but to write for money? People will probably expect a lot from me, and if I don't live up to their expectations, then I failed and don't deserve the money. The worst part is, there's nothing else that I'm really good at, so what else can I offer?
I've paused the offer for now, but I would appreciate some opinions. I've basically accepted I can't work retail. How do I know if I'm good enough to charge money for a service? How do I figure out other things I might be good at? This is all quite frustrating, because I want to get better at doing the things I enjoy, and I want to make some sort of income, but my lack of confidence in my own skills is holding me back.
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