I am sorry that people are triggered truly I am....maybe I should just have gone quietly like I was going to ... but then people would think I was heartless just leaving when you all have been so good to me ... there is nothing wrong, I just need to leave to look after ME which is what my T wants me to do ....

sometimes I am triggered here too, I have left my e.mail for people to contact me, I dont want to just leave and forget everyone ..... please understand this ... whichever way I chose to leave it wouldn't have pleased everyone .....

I would love to hear from my friends and everyone who has helped me so much... please also know I dont want to leave with bad feeling ... because that would hurt so much ....

I just need to heal in my own way and maybe pc is just not that way right now .... this is MY PROBLEM noone elses, but I find replies were getting less and less and that is a trigger ... to ME ... this is not a reflection on anyone else ..... I know people struggle at this time of year....

If anyone needs to talk, you have my e.mail I am not abandoning anyone.... that sound conceited it's not meant that way.... grrrr

just know I care and always will and I'm sorry

Jinny