Understood. You had an episode and then all spiralled out of control. And maybe there wasn't much you could do about it.

It was similar for me recently. I had or still have what one would call an episode and behaved unreasonably. Mine didn't come out of nowhere, it was triggered.

But suppose you hadn't had an episode, do you think you could have done something to prevent your anger from spiking in a situation like the quoted line?