Some of you know that I've been on a long path towards gall bladder removal. I had symptoms over the summer but spaced apart and I ignored them until Thanksgiving week when I was just plain sick. I went to the dr, had an ultrasound after it hurt so badly for him to poke my belly that I actually reached up and removed his hand, and was diagnosed with a bunch of gallstones. So my gall bladder needs to come out.

This should be so easy but because of my MAOI I'm limited in where I can safely have surgery. And that has made it take longer, especially since the first surgeon I saw couldn't do the surgery for months. He also was freaked out by mental illness. So I have another surgeon and surgery is in 17 days.

But I'm having more discomfort the last few days. I've been living with constant nausea for months but now that is worsening. And 17 days is a long time.

On top of that Saturday will be the one year anniversary of losing my 2nd cat in 2 months last year. I miss him (and the other one) so much. My kittens are great but they are still babies and just not the same. Not that it is going too be the same but well, I just miss them.

I'm tired but too uncomfortable to sleep. 17 days feels like it is so far away.