Please do not disappear from here...PC... like I said in my PM... we are here to support you...

You sound like you are so hurting... and my questions I realized sounded so harsh... and I really truely didn't mean them to be... I just wanted to know more.. and I should have phrased it better...

I have feelings such as yours... and I have them from time to time... and I have to fight to keep them back... and yet I am not successful... it is so hard....really hard...and I have these feelings when I am depressed....

It is different for everyone....

((((hugs))) if you will accept them.....