And I think a lot of people seem to be very open but if you start investigating a bit further they really arent't... I have been working with being open for many years, and I have gotten responses from others that it's so good that I am open. But, I'm not really. I only tell about things that I don't really care about anymore, that doesn't make me feel anything. All the things that are still rubbing my heart and making pain I even have problems telling even my psychologist... not to mention TALKING about it (but I do anyway).

There is also a difference in how open I am according to the day. If I feel bad, I don't want to open up, if I feel good, I don't mind so much.

But, you know, it is a curse with being open too. It is always someone that might take advantage of what you are telling, or that doesn't understand. The "middle" way can sometimes be impossible to find.

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