I completely empathize with that feeling if actually having gone crazy since starting therapy. I have always been put together on the outside, and just kind of daydreamy with childhood trauma( who knew dissociated from it?). Since taking down defenses , and facing facts, it is so much harder for me to function.

I am so so attached to my T while we struggle with many of the same dynamics as you and your T, in the sense of it feels like there is a bond from all the confiding, but it means much more to me than my T.

I told him I didn't think he had skin in the game . That is the one thing that got through to him, and he said how much he did care. Ironically, I was so upset, I barely felt the words.

There's something natural about humans confiding in humans, but the therapy part dismantles the naturaalness in hope of wringing more healing out of there process . it is a very hopeful idea, but it has some problems