We have all struggled and been where you are at right now. Now is not the time to be disappointed in yourself. Right now, you need to muster up as many good thoughts about yourself as you can so that you can move past this. It important that you see yourself as worthy of sobriety. You are worthy! You are not hopeless—very few are hopeless. One reason you are not hopeless is because you are here asking for help and being honest about yourself.

It is true drinking does take over—it does give us artificial motivation and can make us appear brave. In reality we are often fooling ourselves. How motivated and brave did you feel when you were lying on the couch trying not to throw up? Please don’t feel as if I am judging you—I am an alcoholic and addict too—there is no room for us to judge each other. There is only room for us to love and support one another.

You have a tough road ahead of you. For one thing, the woman you have been trying to get out of your life is going to see this as a sign that it is now okay for her to hang with you. Be strong, explain things to her if you can—let her know you are trying to make a better life for yourself. Tell her you stumbled but that you don’t plan on doing it again.

In order to stay sober, it was vital that I develop a plan of recovery. I had to be proactive and make changes in my life. Do you have a plan? Are you willing to make changes? I really, truly hope you decide to get clean because bad things happen to those of us who use. The bad choices you mentioned will eventually lead to bad consequences. Stop now, stop before it gets any worse…. If you have the desire to get sober and are honest, you will find a way to get and stay sober.

Today is a new day—today is a good day to get clean and sober. Things will get better, things will get easier but you have to work for it. If recovery was easy and did not require effort, everybody would be doing it…You don’t have to do this alone. I am here to support you 100%. Please, PM me if you want to talk or work on a plan or if you just need to vent.