Regardless of what happened it’s causing problems in your life based on your thread.

Everyone deals with things differently, I myself have a lot of trauma work I need to do. Do I want to !? Hell no! But every night it’s the same 2 nightmares. For me it’s time to tackle it since I am back home and away from the actual place that one of the traumas took place at.

I hope your able to find peace in whatever shape that is for you.