I lost a friend who also has schizoaffective disorder because for a while I thought he was a bad friend even though he had dropped everything to help me when I needed it. I really regret that I couldn't see through the state of unhappiness that I was in at the time and see my part in my own unhappiness.

I've since reached out to be friends again but he wants nothing more to do with me so the friendship is lost, probably for good and I'm sad about it. Sometimes the illness has taken over and that does wreck friendships.