I am sorry that you were raped - you say you don't blame the perp, I hope that you don't blame yourself. It is always the perp's blame - they are the wrong doers.

Rape is all about control - it is not love, it is not lust, it is not sex. It is a brutal act of control done against another person and it is always wrong.

Being horney does not give a boy, teen or man the right to push himself on another against their will. No means no. A real man would not force himself on another.