We talked over the tues rupture, and things seem ok. He suggested art therapy because I struggle with expressing painful emotions and he says it helps with that, somehow.

He also thinks discussing attachment needs to be a big priority right now. He answered all my questions which was good, and still acted the same but on my end, it's still sadly different, its workable, but it's not the same, I don't get the same happy and excitement of joking with him anymore. its more like, ha, ok nice.

I also got my 50th hug, which yes its weird i kept track but it was a way for me to help process all the internal thoughts and emotions i was having over them as hugging has been a huge issue for me in life... so this was a pretty big deal.