Thank you all for your posts. I'm re-reading what I wrote and gosh it sounds strong.. I think my problem is not so much that I hate those who try to love me, but I push them away. I have a hard time believing someone will be there for me if I trust them. My mom had that same kind of "trust me-- I love you--but I'm not going to be there for you when you do" type of nature. So people who try to open me up when I dont trust them get on my bad side.