Well, here I am, single again and it's depressing the heck out of me.

I like partnership. I prefer partnership. I have always gravitated towards relationships.... I have been single for months at a time in my life and have taken breaks before, but this time, I feel it may be permanent.

I have patterns and have always landed myself into unhealthy relationships.

I am losing hope that I will ever be healthy enough myself to avoid these kinds of relationships. I feel I will always be alone. I fear I will always be alone.

I also feel that there are no good men out there who are single and healthy minded enough who also happen to be highly compatible with me. What are the odds? Slim to none. I've dated plenty.

I don't know how I am going to exist if I have to be single for the rest of my life. I have friends. I have a social life and I go out often. But this reality is seriously depressing me.

Single women are supposedly some of the happiest people alive, but for me, I cannot imagine being happy for the rest of my life if I have to be single.

I am losing hope. I'm 47 and feel that nothing will change.

Please help.. even if it's just a story of inspiration, I need to hear it. Especially from those who can relate to where I am at.... thank you so much.