Thank you for the good thoughts and encouragement.
I didn't sleep well. Not at all. I'd fall asleep for 5 or 10 minutes. I cried all damn night apparently even in my sleep, screamed into my pillow and really fought the worst possible situation all night long. My entire face is red and puffy. My eyes and around them look like I've been punched they're so red. I said effit and am at the gym anyway. Somebody asked if I'm ok and I said something they couldn't interpret, "I'm not ready to talk about it. You don't want to know." She called me an *** and walked away. That's indicative of both of us having issues I guess. I don't know what I should do about this. There's really nothing.