I drink every day at night after i come home from work. sometimes even during the weekend if i want to relax and stop the thoughts.

sometimes, while getting home, i feel like crying from the relief in knowing i'll get to drink.

i wouldnt know how to quantify it. i dont drink enough to vomit, just enough to feel dizzy. the effects usually last for 2-4 hours.

i do it because i deserve it. a little break from life....

i feel i need it but i guess i could do without it if i decide so. i could take pills instead of that, or SH.... just to relax myself, because my job is stressing and i need and deserve something to chill out.....

would you say im an alocholic? how would you define me or an alcohloic?