It might feel like a spiral. But I think its more growing. Now that you've come terms, so to speak, with what happened, you can start fitting pieces of the puzzle together about your past and today. When I realized what had happened to me wasnt right, it took 16 years almost, I decided not to be a victim but a survivor so that maybe I can be better because of it. In some way. And granted, I haven't yet told my family, I have told 1 person (in person) and that is a start.

It will be ok! Its not ok now.