I don't know if this is actually a good idea, to go into this, The Genesis of my darkness. It really makes me very off-balance and closer to the edge. I really want to not have to deal with this. I'd hoped getting it out here on the forums would let me go on beyond it, instead it makes it more vivid and horrible, like what Ted Turner did to movies in the '90s. At least I've still got my warped sense of humor. That stupid joke made me laugh anyway.