How do you both experience that 'false self' thing when its happening?
Because, with me, it usually only ages after that I realise I said things that werent really what I meant or wanted. Like I squished myself.

But at the time it really legitimately seems like somehow the 'right' thing to do. I also hate this side of myself. Profs that I read call it a 'defense', They mean defense against being rejected or hurt etc, but that just doesnt quite fit what goes on with me, its too reflex to be called that, and besides, its feels a bit like being called a moral coward, its not really like that. It feels more like a neurological gap where my nerve pathways just dont have continuity, get interrupted.
What does it feel like when its happening with you .....??