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Originally Posted by 99fairies
I think the best way to work through this is to bring it up with your T. Just tell her you need to take it slow. T's are professionals and it's not like they havent heard it all. They are trained to help people with the things you are going through.
I know bringing it up makes it feel real and almost like you're going through it again. But just remember, that time in your life is over now and the memories are shittty to have to deal with but they can't hurt you anymore. They're just memories. You're safe now.
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I'm working on building courage to tell my t on Tuesday. He will wonder what else I've lied about. I told him "no" when he asked the sexual intake questions.
Full on flashbacks, war veteran style, are making it very real.
I don't feel safe at all and haven't. Not now or forever. The safest I felt was in hospital and I still found ways to force myself to sleep.
I need a shower. I didn't after working out. Parents are home. I made them lunch, cheesesteak sammiches. Now I can go be alone again before they say anything else assaten. They've already been into me a few times in under 90 minutes, for decades past things, while I was cooking them lunch that I went to the store and bought with my own money. Nevermind that I'm going to have to pull my own tooth later because I can't afford a dentist. I don't think I love my parents. Is that wrong?