Hello IckyDog. Welcome to the forums. It sounds like you are feeling very much alone. I hope you will take the time to find a counselor or therapist to talk with. If you are in school, there is probably a counselor there that you can see. Family Services in most cities has a sliding scale that is affordable for most people. Look in the Yellow Pages for your town and see what is there.

Please keep coming back and let us know how you are doing.

(((((((((( safe hugs)))))))))))