I'm not really sure how this works but hopefully I'm doing this right.
I'm 17 years old and I suffer from homicidal thoughts. I don't hear voices of anything like that. Since about September I've been waking up with migraines, feeling extremely tired, and that's basically when the thoughts started. This is hard to explain but it doesn't feel like it's me thinking those things. Every time I get them i want to die. I don't like the fact that i don't feel like I have control over what goes on in my head. It hurts me every time I have homicidal thoughts. I've thought many times about just killing myself to get away from the thoughts. Also I 100% of the time can control my homicidal urges. My triggers are a lot of things. My family being the majority of those triggers. I right now just want to learn is to deal with these thoughts, and if I don't i might end up in the hospital again or worse. I can't live like this anymore