Thank you all -- these are all great points and good questions. Although I am not talking about dating again right now. I am taking myself out of the dating scene. I know I shouldn't be dating. I know my life needs some fixing (mainly just moving now -- I have two jobs... I will be working full time and can afford health insurance). The point of my post is that I feel like I will be alone forever. that I cannot break my patterns and that I am doomed to be alone.