I don’t know what’s happened to me.

I can relate to so many threads here on things hard to do—showering, cleaning/organizing, eating properly, exercising, making conversation, working! I’m able to do these things, I can. It’s just harder than it used to be. Everything. Driving. Walking. I even put my credit cards on autopay (all my other bills were already). I barely care about whether the bills are correct. I barely care about anything.

What has happened to me.

Did my bipolar disorder get worse?

Is it because I got put on lithium? Is it the gabapentin? Or both?

I don’t think I feel depressed. I have anxiety, but I always have had that. If anything, it’s better. Maybe it’s the reduction in anxiety. Maybe the anxiety was my motivation. I don’t know.

I know you guys can’t tell me. I’m whining I guess.