Flat is OK with me. I do not like being “drugged up” by my own emotions. For instance, being hypomanic and playing tag with others on the road. I do not need to be hypomanic to be happy. Actually I think being hypomanic together with the way it can make you feel is not the same thing as being happy. I like to have all of my senses and be in control of my life. I am just surprised that everyone does not want this for themselves. Unfortunately, this being in control of myself and my emotions is elusive to me.