No matter where I go or what I do, I just feel so... trapped.

Everyone knows I'm not okay (not sure about how much, though), since I've quit trying to hide it. I can't hide it anymore, it takes too much energy just to stay alive.

I'm down on myself even more now since my meds have made me gain a good 20lbs.. I just feel useless, like there is no point to anything anymore and probably never was.

I'm trapped in this place in my head and I can't get out. How do I get out of this?