(((YouOme)))

I have had multiple relapses in my attempts at sobriety. They are not fun. But with each one, I've learned a little more about how bad I feel when I drink. It sounds like you had a bad experience with the alcohol and drugs - try to remember what that felt like the next time you feel like picking up.

But don't be too hard on yourself. Addictions are a tough thing to get out of. Recovery is hard. In fact it's the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. But it's worth it.

You can treat this as a learning experience and start over with today being a new day of sobriety.

Good luck.

--splitimage