This is sheer whining: It hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrttttttttttttttssssssssssssss. I feel like I need to burp and can't. So much pressure and then it hurts anyway in a more stabby way.

15 more days. I'm going to email my dr Monday to see if he has any ideas for the pressure thing. And while I've been eating low-fat except one error 3 days ago I think I need to back off to soup, crackers, and mashed potatoes again. It's like I'm not tolerating fat at all now.

I am so fed up. I just want this stupid thing out of me and yet I'm terrified that removing it won't help since I've been warned of that.

Stupid MAOI or it would've been done weeks ago.

Also, can't sleep with the pressure and pain combined so I'm also really tired to make it all worse.

And today was the anniversary of my 2nd cat's death. I miss him and the cat who died 9 weeks before him so much.

Oh and Monday I have 2.5 hours each way in the car to see my pdoc. That will be fun I'm sure.

sorry for whining. I'm just reaching the end of my rope and I have a long way to go yet.