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Originally Posted by Breadfish
Attachment? Not sure if that is the right word. I do realize they are paid professionals, and not friends or family, and more than that: I like it that way. I don't feel the desire to be special in their eyes, or to see/speak them three times a week. I don't think I have any transference going on (I say 'think' because, would I know if I had?).
We have a good working relationship. I don't think that's the same as being attached.
I'm not attached to the persons. I'm attached to feeling better.
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Thank you, I wish I could have articulated this in my last session.
I like my therapist, I think about him, I hope he cares about me, I hope to find meaning in what we do. I don't need to be his best friend or super special to him.
If I'm honest with myself I do find him attractive, and based on how many similar interests we have, I think we'd probably be at least casual friends if we'd met some other way. The reason why I went to see him was because he sounded like someone relatable, after all!
But I'm in a happy, loving marriage and can remind myself I'm only seeing his best side. An outside relationship is out of the question - - been down that road before, no thank you.
Last week he said a few things that make me wonder if he thinks I want to be super special to him. I think I completely failed at explaining myself -- there's a difference between wanting to be someone's favourite and wanting your relationship with them to matter.