I've been like this for a couple of years now, though now it's worse. When I think about it, I've been like this since starting Abilify (and I've been pretty stable all this time) but I honestly don't know if it has anything to do with it.

I get nothing done. Whenever I even THINK of doing laundry, or straightening up, or answering emails, or going through snail mail, or paying bills, exercising, even showering on non-work days, etc., etc., I get so anxious, I just feel paralyzed and end up doing nothing.

Anxiety related to these things just doesn't make sense. And now I'm wondering if it's been depression all of this time, or a form of depression. I just don't have the energy. I know I'll feel better if and when I do these things, and yet I still don't. It's so demoralizing, I just feel lazy, but I know something else must be going on, I just don't know what it is. It is so frustrating and makes me very sad and feel badly about myself. I wish I knew how to get out of this.