(((echoes)))) my heart is breaking after reading that. i know what you mean. you called T reaching out expecting to hear that soothing voice . that comfort you've had before and so despritley need right now. and as the phone call continues and you don't get it, you want it even more. then the call ends. you hang up. and your alone again. but not the same kind of alone you were before you called T. No. Even worse. And you realize you reaching out just made you feel more alone. And you long that comfort even more. and you don't know what to do, and all there is to do is wait. until the time to see T again. but by then, most likely you won't need the comfort to the same degree. it's so hard, i know. The only thing i could suggest is writing to her right now. Explain how the call let you down, explain what you needed and what you got. (or didn't get) and then either send the email or print it out and give it to her next time. feel better echoes, it will be ok.